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Yet Another Reason to Kick the Sugar Habit

I was diagnosed with pre-diabetes today. This is quite a blow to me. I’ve been working hard to get refined sugar out of my diet, and now this. I was told 1) lose weight 2) eat a Mediterranean diet and 3) exercise a lot more.

How nice for my very skinny doctor to blithely tell me to lose weight when it’s really, really hard to lose weight! I already eat a really, really healthy diet!! Except for sugar, which I give up about six weeks ago, as of this writing.

And, I have to admit, it’s getting a lot harder to avoid eating sugar. I feel like I will fall off the wagon at any moment.

In my fridge at this very instant are two quite delectable, fluffily frosted gluten-free cupcakes that I’d love to eat. They were purchased for my son’s birthday, but ended up in our fridge. And at work today, a pile of cupcakes topped with inch-high frosting appeared in the kitchen. “Help yourself,” said our fearless leader, but I abstained.

How long can I keep this up? One. Day. At. A. Time. I got through today without eating sugar. That’s all I can think about right now.

Actually, that’s not true. I have allowed myself to eat one Kind Bar every day since I started this sugar-free quest. I love the Dark Chocolate Peanut Butter Kind bars, but I also eat a couple other types of dairy-free Kind Bars. But only one a day, for a total of 4 or 5 grams of added sugar per bar. That’s well within the 18-gram per day limit for refined sugar my nutritionist recommends.

Today, I also spritzed some coconut whipped cream (which contains 1 gram of sugar per half- cup serving) onto my sugar-free lemon squares. In total, I ate maybe 7 or 8 grams of sugar today. Is this the thin edge of the wedge, the camel’s nose under the tent flap?

I don’t think so. I hope not. But emotionally, I will not survive this loooooooong sugar
free journey if I can’t eat any sugar at all. I will feel hopeless and out of control. I’ll throw up my hands and say “To Hell with it” and start eating loads of sugar every day — those scrumptious organic peanut-butter filled chocolates I love, along with the Trader Joe’s coffee ice cream I adore, and those amazing gluten-free, dairy-free cupcakes my local gluten-free baker makes in many flavors but with no chemical ingredients, yet are heaped high with butter-less fluffy frosting that makes my teeth tingle, it’s so filled with sugar.

I don’t have a recipe to post today. I ate all theĀ low-sugar lemon squares. I’m tired of making low-sugar banana cream pie. I ate the low-sugar chocolate mousse too. And I don’t feel satisfied. I love eating desserts! I watched as my daughter ate a stunning triple-decker chocolate mousse cake at a restaurant dinner recently, while I ate a bowl of fruit with a schmear of whipped cream on top. It made me sad.

And it’s unfair! My skinny friends eat all the sugary stuff I love, only they eat far less of it, and if they eat a little bit, they don’t start eating more and more of it every day, as I do. It’s an addiction, no doubt about it, and it’s insidious and so, so hard to shake, especially when few people recognize sugar as an addiction and keep pushing sugary snacks on me, even my husband, who should know better.

I bought a few “healthy” sugar substitutes online, and I’m planning on experimenting with them when I pull myself out of this sugar-free funk I’m in. But I don’t have much hope I’ll be able to use them to create satisfying desserts. At this point, I’m feeling quite down about my quest to rid my diet of sugar, and it hasn’t even been two months!! How am I going to keep this up for the rest of my life???

Oh yeah, pre-diabetes….

To be continued….

Springhouse Turtle



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